Friday, March 23, 2007

Contradictions (Part 3) *'*controlling feelings but not thoughts*'*

At school we often discussed if one could control his feelings or not.. Especially when it comes to love. I believe one can.
After all, you don't just wake up one morning and find out that you are in love.
Love is a process. A long process. It starts with respecting someone, getting to know this someone, liking this someone, getting used to talking to this someone, etc. and there's always this certain point where it is your decision if you want to give free reign to your feelings or not.
So, all in all you can control the development of your feelings.
But when it comes to keeping your thoughts under control it gets even harder than controlling your feelings because you do not really notice it.
The best example is: you’re sitting doing some German homework, then there’s this one word which you don’t understand but then you remember that this word was explained to your before, you start thinking in which context this word was explained and what had raised the topic itself, after that you start remembering the whole discussion and all what’s been said and how the topic was changed and how you began talking about something totally different… And in the end you find yourself thinking of things which don’t have anything to do with your German homework. (-.-)
During the last months I’ve really stated enjoying tracking the development of a discussion and how things are connected. It’s awesome how totally different things can be linked to each other!!!
The only thing which bothers me is that once you let your mind wander your thoughts can get so out of control that you don’t even notice that you are missing the point (and wasting time).
So, on the one hand my self-control works perfectly when it comes to controlling feelings.. but totally fails regarding thoughts.. Got to work on that! =)

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