Will repeat that the whole day long! (-.-)

OK, this post is dedicated to myself as I'm trying to convince myself of the following things:

• It is NOT of my business what my friends do or do not do
• It is NOT my job to give them any kind of advice
• It is NOT my business how my friends' personal life is going
• It is NOT my problem if one of them is falling and falling
• It is NOT me who should play the role of their voice of conscience

I spent the last years doing all that, the whole stupid idiotic caring, giving advices, helping, etc.
And guess what? I'm tired of it. I can't take it any more because when you make so much effort and in the end when you have not achieved anything then you are forced to give up and to live with that.
Of course, I'm excluding my real friends who have all (almost) finished school already. Can't wait to be done with it too.
So, let's hope I will be able to convince myself as quickly as possible of these things because it CANNOT go on like that any more...
Ok, this post is set in the label of "Alarm'' so that I always keep it in mind! And it is an ALARM!
An alaram for me to wake up and get a grip!

Here you can compare this post with my real defnition of frienship:
Recepting, accepting but also changing

Tip of the day

Do NOT watch ''Grey's Anatomy'' while you are eating!!!

Do NOT watch ''South Park'' while you are eating!!!

Do NOT watch ''CSI: NY'' while you are eating!!!

Bon Appetit! (before or after it) (-.-)

Greetings

Ok, as I am sitting here in my room and I can't do anything to help you out there (Believe me, that feels terrible!!!) I thought the least thing I could do is writing you a post wishing you:

GOOD, GOOD LUCK! AND DON'T WORRY, EVERYTHING WILL BE FINE INSHAA' ALLAH!!! =)

''Take it easy!''

Seven persons, who have nothing to do with each other, told me: ''Take it easy!'' in different situations.
What does that say about me? That I am making a big fuss over a lot of things...

I am convinced that my life would be much easier if I took everything easy and got a bit more ''easy-going''. But there is still a risk of becoming superficial and careless which is also negative thing.
So, I guess the best thing is to find some balance. To take big important things serious while taking the small unimportant things easy.

Wooow, I discovered two negative things about myself in 2 hours. Hallelujah!
And here we go with another goal! =)

Talking is Au (gold)? No, Ag (silver)?

There is an Egyptian proverb ''If talking was silver then remaining silent is gold!''.
Well, as I am not on speaking terms with some people I can just say: One cannot generalize it!!
Sometimes the gap grows in relationships/friendships by each word that is not said. And what is even worse? When you cannot do anything about it! Because it is simply pointless and it will not change anything!

On the other hand, I noticed that I will become a member of this ''Share Your Problems With The Whole World (without taking into consideration that YOU will be the problem very soon)'' organization if I did not start dealing with my conflicts all alone. Of course, other's advice is very useful and even necessary but not all the time. Making your own mistakes is still a must!

So, here I go with another thing to be ''corrected'' regarding my personality.
Inshaa' Allah I will succeed in that one too.. Wouldn't be the first shady side..

Why bring it to an end?

It's crazy when you have this wonderful relationship/friendship and suddenly you have to end it.
Either because you're getting tired because the other person doesn't seem to understand you at all or because you are afraid that any kind of development could lead to troubles and then the whole relationship will end anyway.
The point is: It's not a decision. It's more a feeling that can be based on your heart or on sensible reasons. And when this feeling gets so strong (because its releases are quite effective) you do not have another choice than just to let the relationship fade away.
The hardest part is to accept it.. The last friendship, which was destroyed by every word that was not said, it took me almost two years to face the fact that it cannot go on like that any more.
Right now? Either I am making a big fuss about everything or I am just trying to avoid it.

Don't worry, I'm not depressed or anything.. Just thinking a lot in order to talk a bit less. =)

HELP!

It's a posting problem.
Each time I post something and I want to start a new line I have to add the ''br'' and ''p'' html codes.
So, the normal composing doesn't work!!!
And I'm going mad because of that.
I was going to start posting my poems but if I have to add ''br'' all the time I will forget about the whole thing.

So, do you have any idea how I can solve this problem?

Changing template AGAIN! (-.-)

It's unbelievable. I will have to change my template for the *****th time.
This time the posting is causing some problems because I always have to work with the Html to get a paragraph and so on. I'm honestly fed up with it!
So, I'm changing it now inshaa' Allah..

Can't wait Spring 2007 where I can start a whole new thing where I don't have to choose but can create everything as I like it!!!

Heaven/Where True Love Goes - Yusuf Islam

This song definitely made my day! =)
Watch, listen and enjoy...

(First press play then pause and leave it until it has finished loading, so it doesn't buffer and you can really enjoy it.)

This man really deserves to be called an artist, a great artist!

Strange mood

You know when you feel happy, worried, mad, excited and confused at the same time?
Well, it's a weird combination but every single feeling has its reason:

I'm happy that my social life has reached its optimum el 7amdulellah.
I'm worried because there are signs for the death of a very beloved person.. Plus, it's the most important person in my life.
I'm mad because of that stupid chemistry exam which was really difficult.
I'm excited about graduating from school and starting university.
I'm confused because during the last days I'm not so sure of what I want any more.

Just a phase.. After the exams, I guess..
Anyway, let's hope everything will be fine inshaa' Allah!

No posts until 24/01/2007

Just wanted to apologize that I won't be able to post anything during the next days because tomorrow we will start our A-Level exams. Rabena ye3adiha 3ala 7'eir!
How am I feeling? Well, of course I'm a bit excited but I'm happy that it will be over very soon isA.

So, good, good luck in the exams ya Abiturienten 2007! =)

Unbelievable (-.-)

Today we were sititng in the Leseraum discussing what our Abi-ball (prom) will be like.
Suddenly one of the girls said: ''We have to write on the tickets that parents have to leave at 11 pm!''
Excuse me? I can't believe someone would dare to say something like that. And what's even worse? All the girls agreed on that saying things like: ''Yeah they must leave so we can enjoy the rest of the evening on our way..'', ''After all, that's our big evening, not theirs.. So, why should they stay?'' and ''As soon as it's 11 pm I will tell (not ask) my mother to leave.''
I remained silence at the beginning but in the end I really couldn't help it and just said:
''You know what, I think they should stay until the end. Would be a great chance for them to see how they failed in raising up their children.''

One thing is sure: I'm leaving with my Grandma and I won't stay one single minute there without her!!!

PS: To enlighten you a bit: The reason why they don't want their parents to stay is so they can start drinking, smoking and all the ************ they do behind their parents' back all the time.

3 things I hate about nice people

We all hope to get to know nice people. After all, who likes mean ones?
But there are still a few things which really bother me about 60% of the nice people I know:

• They never criticize you in order of being nice which means that they can keep watching you doing wrong things while remaining silent (I personally hate that!)
• You often get irritated by their smiles because you never know what they really think
• When they say ''thanks'' you aren't sure if they are just saying it because they mean it or just out of politeness

Well, maybe these people are amazing and I'm just some kind of a psycho who doesn't appreciate them but my definition of ''nice'' is that one is kind and generous but also honest and open.

Removing MSN

Hey people (who chat with me on MSN),
I have some news for you:
I removed MSN! And I owe you an explanation for that:
Well, it's not only because of the exams and studies of the next 2 weeks but I also started wondering:

1. Why should I chat with people I see everyday at school?
   I can talk to them at school and if they are friends I can go out with them. Rarely talking to certain people at school and then chatting with them for hours on MSN is just lame somehow.
2. The people I don't see everyday at school like family members, friends, etc.
   There's still a great invention called a ''phone'' and another one named ''Skype''. The phone is for the ones who are living with me in this country. Skype is for my relatives and friends who are not living in this country. (Except Gassia, as we use Skype so we don't get into troubles with our families as the phone line is often busy thanks to us :D)
3. MSN does great job when it comes to get to know people but it also has its disadvantages because if these people are always just ''typing'' then the whole relationship is kind of ''electronized'' which I personally don't regard as a real relationship. (Gassia asked me to add that she is not my friend regarding this statement.)
4. MSN is like a drug. You can get addicted to the whole chatting thingy so fast, easily and without taking it into consideration. So, in my case removing it was kind of self-discipline.

All in all, I don't know if I will reinstall MSN or not... Still thinking...
So, we'll see..

Spent 567'648'000 seconds on this planet!

6th of January, 1990

Well, that was 536'112'000 seconds ago. And now I'm finally of age! =D

And when I look back I notice that during the last 567'648'000 seconds I spent:

• 409'968'000 seconds going to the German school in Cairo (that would be 72% of my life!)
• 63'072'000 seconds doing the stupid Abitur (If I included 10th grade it would be 94'608'000 seconds)
• 157'680'000 seconds living continuously at my Grandma's place
• 220'752'000 seconds loving Anime and Mangas
• And 2'400 seconds on the following:

May I present you my new logo. You will find all the letters of my name written in it! ;)

Why I waited until 10:10 AM?
Well, I was on born on a Friday at 10:10 AM! So, NOW I can consider myself as really 18! ;)

Now about today's highlights:

• I will get the keys of the flat (FINALLY!)
• I will get my ID card (for some reason my Grandma was convinced that I will lose it?!) (-.-)
• Amr is coming! =) (relative who lived in the US and I haven't seen him for 3 years!)
• my Grandma was talking about some surprise.. We'll see what it is =)

And will any party take place? Nooooo. Not in need of it as my family has already celebrated my birthday on New Year's Eve and that was the best evening (party?) ever!

(That would be 2040 seconds writing this post! =D But blogger writes the time when I have started writing it.)
That means 9:36 AM + 34 minutes = 10:10 AM ;)

Deliver us - The Prince of Egypt

Dreamworks' animated film ''The Prince of Egypt'' has amazing songs!
RESPECT to the composers. The soundtracks are incredible!
Here you go with ''Deliver us'':

(First press play then pause and leave it until it has finished loading, so it doesn't buffer and you can really enjoy it.)

Suddenly I see - KT Tunstall

After watching the movie ''The Devil wears Prada'' I searched for the song in the beginning of the movie and found it. I really like it so I hope you will too. =)

(First press play then pause and leave it until it has finished loading, so it doesn't buffer and you can really enjoy it.)

Bones - The Killers

I already knew the song but after watching the video I just had to post it! :D

(First press play then pause and leave it until it has finished loading, so it doesn't buffer and you can really enjoy it.)

I think the idea with the skeletons is so cool! =D
Ignore the rest!!!

My favourites in 2006

Wanted to post my favourite things in 2006:

My favourite:

• number: 6 (---> birthday 6/1)
• coffee: Cappuccino
• food: Gnocchi
• fast food: Hardee's Cordon Bleu and Mega Mushroom
• pizza: Salami and mushroom (protein 7ayawany ya gama3a)
• sweet stuff: Cinnabon
• cakes: Cheesecake and chocolate cakes
• chocolate: Swiss chocolate
• fish: Salmon fillet
• chips: Lays Delights - BBQ Sauce
• movie: A walk in the clouds
• song: Corazon de Nino
• video clip: Bones - The Killers
• music: Power metal
• mucial: Phantom of the Opera
• news channel: Al Jazeera
• colour: Aqua and black
• outfit: Jeans and black shirt
• creatures: Spiders, snakes and butterflies
• photo ws: Splendid Pictures Around The Net
• series: CSI NY, Grey's Anatomy and South Park
• Manga: Inuyasha and Detectiv Conan
• YouTube: The ballad of Ranma and Akane
• mobile: Motorola
• collage: 12b2 (part 1)
• font: Minya Nouvelle

I guess there is more to write about but that's all I can think of right now.. =D

Planned highlights in 2007

Ok, I have a few plans for this year. Listing the most important ones to see afterwards what was realized..

• All the lyrics' melodies will be fnished and my keyboard will take part in that
• 2 operations
• Linux ubuntu
• Abi 2007 website
• 3d Workshop at the New York Academy
• Student paper

We'll see... =)

Thank you so much for everything!

(This post is dedicated to my family.)

We were invited at my aunt's place because it was the second day of Eid. And after having dinner there was a huge cake and it turned out that it is for the ones whose birthdays are in January.. That would be me and my Grandmother in the first place and then 3 other family members. And we even got presents. (It was adorable, thank you!)
I was really, really touched and I guess I won't be in need for doing anything on my birthday any more.
Then when it was about 12 my cousins weren't there.. And I was freaking out because I really wanted to do that counting thingy for the first time in my life! But they made it in time and arrived at 11:57pm. So, we did the counting thingy and it was just amazing to start the new year surrounded by the family .
It was a wonderful evening (+night) and I really enjoyed it!

Thank you all so much for everything, the birthday cake was perfect.
No, no, you're perfect and I feel honoured to be part of this family!

Love you all,
Nadia